Kaylee's Toy Story 2nd birthday

l am sorry some of you felt that because I wanted no cancer talk, that meant I didn't want people to talk to me at all. It is very difficult to be in my shoes and any distraction is much appreciated. 

Here is a little update. We are currently trying to get a local lab to send a blood sample to the US to have a genetic BRCA 1/2 test done. If I can't get a local lab to help, I will need to travel to the US to get it done, and I don't think I have time for that anymore as we will be beginning chemo soon.

This test will help understand my cancer better and know other treatment options. 

We are praying the test is positive. It has shown to have lower recurrence incidence and there are clinical trials I could be eligible for. 

Please also pray for some headaches I've been experiencing that are making my mind go rampart with thinking the worst. Please pray they disappear, as they are keeping me from my normal activities.

Thank you to everyone who came to the fund raiser yesterday. Every help helps.

I didn't want to write this post because it makes me scared it's my last of these ones. I was late with Kaylee's birthday post last year and I didn't want a repeat. Cancer has already stolen so much from me (more of that in a future post), but I am not gonna let it stop me from enjoying every celebration I can, even if it's my last mother's day, birthday, or Christmas. 

I am already preparin Emmalee's birthday, which I had hers and Kaylee's planned already months ago. 

I really enjoyed this theme and celebrating with everyone.

I noticed that balloon had popped after I saw the pics. I wanted to kick myself in the butt. 

A friend said that I should throw those blocks away when I was cleaning up because no one would use them. He could not have been more wrong. The girls love them. I want to make the rest of the alphabet.

Here you can see my mini lemon cakes (which were to die for) with army men toppers. In the back you can see the handmade Woody. In another pic you can spot the handmade Jessie. Kaylee played with these until they tore apart. I bought the favor boxes last November.

Love my ham with chocolate coins. Couldn't decorate the bucket with the sign "There's a snake in my boot" for th gummy worms, but they all still enjoyed them. Thank goodness green jello was a lot easier to make than the blue jello for Emmalee's Rapunzel party.

Loved the easy, simple backdrop.

I didn't take pics of my giant blocks, except for this one. There were ABC blocks on the other side of the table. Loved using my bullseye rocker. That was the first purchase my husband and I did when we found out we were expecting. Yeah, some people get useful things first; we bought a toy that was more something we wanted.

The fruit was meant to be served on a watermelon spaceship, but I forgot to tell my helpers not to cut the watermelon. I also couldn't find a big star cookie cutter, so the Woddy badges were a little small. Loved the Jessie hay bale.

The straws are decorated with pencil toppers from the Disney family page.

My friends made fun of my infiniTea, but I still thought it was whimsical.

The figurines are from a toy story playset also in the Disney family page. The girls made a small theatre with the first set I made.

The kids thoroughly enjoyed the playground. They specially liked the pool filled with balls.

Wody piñata!

The easiest cake, but most delicious cake ever.

We enjoyed our photobooth. I used the box afterward to make a playhouse for the girls. I'll be posting the DIY when I finish it.

You can see Emmalee's cheetos fingers in the photobooth. 

Enjoying time with friends.

This girl has been my champion. She helped me with the decoration, set up, the cooking, getting the girls bathe and dressed. She has been my champion in helping me post op, caring for the girls, taking me to doctor appointments, heading fundraisers, and helping me keep my spirits up. I love you, Tia Sara.

Please pray for my family. This cancer is not only happening to me but to my husband, to my mother, to my father, to my sister, to my brother, to my in-laws, my close friends. They are hurting, losing sleep, scared, and worried just as I am. We are all trying to be strong and have faith, but we are also human. The girls have felt that I can't be with them or carry them or play with them. When Kaylee wakes up at night, she won't accept anyone else to comfort or calm her; she wants her mommy. It is heartbreaking for me when I can't hold her. Pray for my girls. Pray they don't lose their mommy. Please.