On letting things go for greater things

I've had trouble getting back into my writing mode so I thought I'd use this grattitude Monday to get a start on.
I hadn't writtten in a while because I was physically unable to write, seriously. 
In that time there was so much I thought I wanted to write about. When I was finally able to write again, nothing came to mind.
And I thought on how easy it is to drop the things you love to do for other things.
For example, I love to read; but during my leave of absence, I watched more television or computer.
I was also unable to play my guitar, but I didn't use that time to study music, compose, or write songs.
I love to cook and spend hours "inventing" in the kitchen, but when I come home from work I'm not inspired to try new recipes; I just want to try whatever takes less effort and time. This is also true on weekends.
Most of the time people claim they have no time. 
It is true we have less time; but if we really love what we do and have passion for it, you make time.
I now understand the phrase: "Youth is wasted on the young."
I truly envy the teenagers with all the time and strength in the world, but mostly I'm angered by how much they waste it.
I'm thankful I had productive teen years.

The hubs and I were analysing our lives and found how much we've changed since marriage, and I'm guessing we haven't realized half of how our lives will change once we become parents.
For instance, the hubs and I (especially he) love to go to the gym. The gym will be totally out of the picture once the baby is here.
So in that time reduction, how will you continue to do what you love?
I gotta confess I was even tempted to just stop writing this blog and let it be, since I wouldn't have time.
I love writing here and leaving a piece of myself saved for time.

I guess you lose that what is dear for you to do if you allow that to happen.
If I stop making time to write, play music, compose, try new recipes, then I simply stop.
Sometimes though, you have to leave things for greater things.
I've been feeling deep regret for having had to sell my piano, but we needed the money.
If I am honest with myself, that piano was gathering dust more than anything. 
This also made me ponder on how much we cling to former lifestyles.
I haven't drawn or painted in many years. I'm a lover of crafts and handmade gifts.
Needless to say, all these loves and passions have taken a back seat when in my youth were in the front seat.
My front seat today: my husband, my baby, my job and house.

I was watching the Big Bang Theory the other day and Bernadette was telling Howard that she didn't like kids.
Howard assured her that she would love the kid if it were her own, to which she replied something like this: "Sure, he'll ruin my body, end my career, end my social life, take up all my time and everything I love and I'll love him more."
I seriously hope that is not the way of thinking of my dear sisters in Christ.

Last night after having served in the church band all weekend, the hubs and I were talking of the different young couples we interacted with.
Most enjoy a more ostentatious lifestyle than ours. This has never bothered me but it bothers the hubs a bit.
I know he wishes he had an iphone, a more recent car, a house on the nicer part of town.
He turned to me and said: "But they don't have a kid on the way. That's all the riches I need."

But you know what?
I'm sure the hubs will do ton of workout following the kid up and down the yard and carrying him everywhere.
He'll enjoy teaching him soccer and baseball and riding the bike.
I'm sure I'll do tons of crafts and cooking and party planning with the kiddo.
I'm sure he'll inspire songs and music and lullaby singing.
And the lessons in learning to breathe I'll learn that I'll be able to share here.

So, continuing the gratefulness:
*456 a husband with his heart on the right place
*457 moving to our new house next weekend!!!
*458 overcoming many diseases and hard weeks. Both the hubs and me (yes, especially me)
*459 the chance to serve on church.
*460 consideration from the band leader on my feeble health state allowing me to miss some meetings.
*461 a house full of boxes and pinkies bumping on every sharp corner because of the lack of space
*462 a night playing with the girls and the hubs
*463 friends that visit and call when I'm sick
*464 finding the babies sex soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*465 giving up on things that you like for things that you'll love
*466 a whole new life in the brink of beginning
*467 a very serviceable, loving, caring, and patient hubby carign for his now more delicate wifey
*468 weekly calls and outting with my sister
*469 a mother to imitate
*470 mom's bday coming up! wish I was with her.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Isaiah 43:18-19
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

Romans 8:28
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Matthew 6:19-21
“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I love You, Lord